so i haven't been here in a while. i've been here to check and such, but not to leave any exciting news.

i went to a wake with tyler on saturday night. for a boy i didn't even know and maybe saw once. but never met. he drank a whole bottle of liquid morphine and choked on his own vomit. yeah, it might not be a glamorous way to go, or a very noteworthy way. but the fact of the matter is this kid died and his family could use all the support they could get. his mom smelled like a hippie. i hugged her even though i didn't know her. she stared at me and pushed my hair out of my face and kept saying over and over how pretty i was. it was weird. and awkward. but her squeeze was comforting. she was so calm. her dead son was laying next to her and all she could think about was this girl she had never met that was hugging her and telling her how pretty she was.
it was comforting

glamour shots is hiring again. all positions. i want to be reconsidered...but i'm chicken. i don't know what i'm scared of.

classes are going good. i feel kind of in a rut though. my routine is the same all the time. i just want to get out of it. its not productive, and i don't like it. i want to be busy and productive and successful.


ok. that's all.

see you later livejournal.